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This morning we went in for an ultrasound, (not mine to the left -- just a visual aid) and found three very happy, very large follicles.  I don't even really know what that means, other than we go home tonight and give me a shot and return to the office Friday morning for the IUI.  I don't know if I expected things to go differently, but as soon as we got the news, I couldn't stop smiling.  Every step of this process has been strange so far, and somehow today's ultrasound just made it a little bit more real for me, and I assume for Karen too.  I called mom on the way home from the appointment and started talking about prenatal nutrition and the like.  Somehow, I never thought I'd say this, but I am willing to give up considering giving up diet coke.  We have already given up drinking, and we're eating healthier than we used to.  Diet coke is tantamount to praying for me, thus the strikeouts above.  We'll see how I feel in a day and a half.  (um, a day and a half -- my stomach just flipped a little.)

All else is pretty status quo -- work is work, February is February.  I took a walk outside today, since we have some short-lived 70° weather here.  It's very strange to be outside walking around with no coat, with ice on the sidewalk.  Stranger, I notice that I'm thinking about being a mother all the time.  What it'll be like to take my next walk out there, wondering if I'll feel different in a few days or a few weeks.  Wondering how long it'll take for us to get a positive result, since (even though I don't want to admit this) it could take us more than one attempt.  Basically, I'm completely preoccupied today.  Luckily, the Clomid agrees with me so far, and except for a few massive headaches, I've been in a phenomenal mood.  I hope it stays this way for a while.

More to come...

update: I'm on diet coke number nine for the day.  Yeah, this'll be a piece of cake...  LOL.

update #2: three large follicles mean that three eggs are maturing and will be released.  You'd think I'd have known this before today.