Thursday, September 3, 2009

our Puerto Rican friends

This morning, I put on the purple and lime bracelet that I got a year and a half ago.

We were vacationing near San Juan, and decided to be adventurous and head into the city for the evening.  We grabbed a taxi and after passing on a few clubs that weren't open on a Tuesday, we decided to try a dance club that appeared pretty busy.  Mixed in with the many people standing outside, talking and smoking, were some interesting characters:  We met El Mago, the magician, who worked the crowd with a trick involving his lit cigarette and a piece of my tee shirt that I was sure would catch me on fire.  We met some other tourists like us, and had the typical discussions about where we're all from and what we all do when we're not on vacation.  In this mix of personalities, we met Tito and Oui Oui, a couple who lived up the road.  They were charming and fun, and we talked for an hour or two before they invited us to visit their apartment down the road.  I still don't know what we were thinking, being that spontaneous, but we walked our little mojito-filled selves about two miles down the cobblestone streets to their place.  Every so often, we'd check in with each other using secret eye signals, to make sure that the other person was still having fun.  Their apartment was probably the smallest one I've ever actually been in, with a teeny kitchen, with a step up into the bathroom, and a loft that they'd made into a bedroom just above the kitchen.  They made us feel at home, with seats on the step and a drink, and we began to talk for a few more hours.  They were both very creative, and as the girls talked, Tito was working on a drawing off to the side.  We discussed music and art, science and movies, and somehow veered into a discussion on how brain chemistry works.  Oui Oui had a pretty thick accent to begin with, and by this time we were all a little tipsy.  As she tried to think of the word for connections in the brain, Karen tries different pronunciations of the word synapses. 

"SIN-apses?" 
No, no, says Oui Oui.
"sin-AP-sis?"
...
This went back and forth for four or five tries, before Oui Oui finally came up with the word on her own.  "Sin-opsizzz," she said. 

Blink.  Blink, blink. 

The night rolled on, and the discussion continued.  We tried to stay focused enough to translate some of Oui Oui's half-French, half-Spanish so that we could keep the discussion going.  Mid sentence, she stopped talking for a moment, and I looked down to find her painting my toenail with a Sharpie.  She explained as she calmly colored, that there was a spot where the polish had worn off, and she was fixing it.  She was very nonchalant about the whole matter, so we tried to roll with it, although I wish I had a picture of the surprise on Karen's face when she realized what Oui Oui was doing. 
After all our discussions and play, it was getting very late and we were more than a little lost in this foreign city, so we decided it was time to make our way back to the hotel.  By this point, they seemed less like strangers we'd just met, and more like friends we'd known for years.  They began handing us gifts to take with us: two bracelets and two coiled wooden reeds that Tito had found a few days before, and painted for us as we gathered our things.  They called a taxi for us, and walked us to him.  Tito spoke with the driver and arranged a discounted rate for the drive home, and we were on our way.  We got back to the hotel, and reviewed the pictures and videos that we'd taken all night, and marveled at how we were fortunate enough to meet such kind and welcoming people so randomly.  We laughed for another hour or so, but found ourselves too tired to continue recapping.  That was, without a doubt, the strangest, most fun night I have ever spent on vacation.

Every time I wear this bracelet, I remember flashes of our Old San Juan night and smile.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

oh, what a day

My first day of school came and went.  After usual traffic delays, I got to school in plenty of time for class, only to find a note on the door that it had relocated to a buiding I wasn't familiar with.  I drove around for a few minutes until I realized that I could find the campus map online (thanks, iPhone).  I made it to class after the requisite bathroom stop about ten minutes late, and I wasn't nearly the last one.  I am hoping that tomorrow's class stays put.  I had forgotten how much I loved high school bio.  I'm looking forward to the labs we have on Thursdays where I'll get to dissect things. 

This morning I was awake about ten minutes before our neighbor Stephanie called to let us know that my car had been broken into.  The passenger window was broken (the opposite side than was smashed last spring in a similar event) and they rifled through the glovebox and handful of things I keep in the console.  So there it all was, a box of Whitening Strips on the seat, the snack bag of Fritos on the floor, and my precious Windshield Wonder.  They didn't take anything, apparently because white teeth, heartburn and insanely clean windshields weren't on their agenda.

Stephanie and Brendan were nice enough to let me borrow their shop vac to clean the glass, and after fifteen minutes of cleaning, I was on my way with the wind in my hair.  Luckily, today is probably the nicest day we've seen in ages -- sunshine, low 60's -- I don't need no stinkin' window!  So I came to work, filed an online police report (ooh, swanky!), and made arrangements for a local glass shop to come here to work to fix the window.  I'm a little impressed with how coolly I'm taking this, since last spring I was in tears about it.  As Shane said, "Something happens today, something else will happen tomorrow." 

Life goes on. 

Speaking of life, Danny kicked me all through class last night -- enough that I'm starting to think he's having parties in there.  Watch it, kid, or you'll be grounded!

**Updated to add: Glass man is already here to fix the window...  He's been here, and the window's fixed.  I called less than two hours ago, and their price is totally reasonable. If you ever need window repair work in the Cleveland area, I recommend Guardian Auto Glass.

Monday, August 31, 2009

it's been a week? dang!

The past week has been a blur, but that's just blogger-speak for 'I haven't written'.  After my birthday off, I had some stomach bug and sat on the couch for a few days unhealthily.  After a little recoup time, we went to dinner with fam, went to Mickey's birthday party, and then had the first bonfire of the season with our neighbors.  I spent all day Sunday studying, and still have several hours tonight before I'll be done --gotta love accelerated programs.  So far, I'm learning all about cells: what their pieces-parts are called, what they all do, how they create food, etc.  I know I learned this in high school biology, and again in college Anatomy and Physiology, but clearly that info has been deleted ages ago.  It's very cool to be able to take notes on a laptop, though.  I type much more quickly than I handwrite, and it's easy to edit and make look all swanky. 

I also have been shopping for fall clothes, thanks to some birthday money from the fams.  If you're looking for maternity-wear, I highly recommend Old Navy.  They have a sale, free shipping for a few weeks, and some really cute styles.  A pair of jeans, sweaters and hoodies, mix & match tops, and a pair of cords.  I even ordered some scarves.  Who am I?

In week 24, Danny is about 12­½ inches long, and about a pound and a half.  He's going to gain half a pound in the next two weeks, so he's in the middle of a bit of a growth spurt.  He will join us in 16 short weeks.  Hard to believe! 

AND - we have another vacation coming up this weekend.  Heading back to Atwood Lake for a few days over the long weekend.  YEY!

Monday, August 24, 2009

we could pin 'em!

We had some friends over this weekend -- we played games, we ate, and we laughed a lot. Mixed in this group was our friend's four-year old son. He might be the most grown-up four-year old I've met. He was not shy at all, and talked to each of us like he's known us for ages. We enjoyed Play-doh, learned that the best game EVER was to ring an old-fashioned bell, and watched as he was fascinated with our cats. At one point, we went on a cat search, finding them as they hid from him napped. We found Phoebe on the bed, and Moxy on the bathroom windowsill. Eric said that we should put them side by side on the bed, so they were all in the same spot. I mentioned that they weren't really fond of sitting together and warned that they might jump down.

He used a very optimistic, matter-of-fact tone when he said, "We could pin 'em!"

***

On the kitten front, he's been really, really active. Last night, I read about our weekly progress in What To Expect, and he kicked the book on my belly, enough that I lost my place. It was a little challenging to read while laughing, but I tried. I can't believe we've made it into our 22nd week... it really seems like just yesterday, we were talking with our new doctor about what our first steps would be. My, how things change.

Friday, August 21, 2009

dreams of bouncing papayas

I had the strangest dream last night; I gave birth, then waited for the baby to wake up so I could feed him.  He didn't wake up for a whole day, and when he did, he was talking.  'Hi, Mom.  I'm not really hungry'.  He had teeth and looked vaguely like he was in his seventies.  I woke up all confused, as if I were in dreamland for a week.  Karen drew Benjamin Button parallels and commented on how cute the dream sounded, but it freaked the crap out of me.  Thank you, pregnancy dreams. 
In kittenland, Dannyboy is kicking up a storm all the time now.  He's about a pound, and about the size of a papaya.  I had to google one, since I don't think I've ever seen one in person -- now I see why he feels like he's gotten so big.  I suppose he's crunched in there, but still...  Imagine a papaya bouncing around inside your belly!
This is our last week before school starts for both of us, so it feels like summer is coming to an end.  Normally by this time every year, I'm a little bit sad, watching the playing season fade away.  This year, it feels like it's just about time for a new season of play.  Putting together cribs and bouncey chairs, and organizing baby clothes will be a new hobby.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

goings on

I have become a somewhat shameless fangirl.  One of my favorite bloggers decided to stop writing, and I wrote him a crazy ranting email a modestly self-effacing email, stating how much I enjoyed his writing.   He wrote back, and was as funny as I'd expect.  I don't know why I'm always surprised that bloggers are real people (who write back when you email, shocking!), but ever since I saw his email, I feel like I'd imagine it feels to meet a Backstreet Boy.  You know, if they could write well, and were cool. 

On the kitten front, I have realized that my daily e-newsletters are filling my head with potential crap about labor and delivery.   There's always conflicting advice from the many updates I receive, and I mentioned one to my friend Jaylene yesterday.  She brought up the fact that babies are born with sharp little nails that they try to remove their faces with.  I said that an article recommended bringing a nail file to the hospital.  She was laughing so hard, she couldn't respond.  Apparently, there is little chance that we will be able to file his nails just after birth, since they'll be paper thin and his skin will be all soft and also fileable -- whooops.  I realized then that I get a lot of advice that all centers around this mythical day that's four months away, where lots of stuff will happen that I won't be prepared for.  I will continue to read the updates because I'm obsessed, but I'll try to read them with a grain of salt a little common sense.

Karen keeps telling me that people have been doing this for a very long time, and that things usually work out just fine.  I don't know what makes me think that studying will help me be a better laborer or a better parent.  Maybe it's just that knowing anything makes all the unknown more comfortable.  I'll stick with that for now.

Monday, August 17, 2009

tremors, a clambake, and a pineapple

All day today, Daniel has been rumbling around in my belly, just like the worms in Tremors.  I just hope he doesn't try to pull any jackhammers down the street with his teeth.

This past weekend FLEW by...  we went to Kennedy Cocktail Hour on Friday night, had a quick visit from some out-of-town guests (hello, Shareen!), had our condo's Clambake Saturday, and recovered and went to the movies yesterday.  Why is it that I always feel like I need a weekend to recover from the weekends?  We had a bit of luck with the clambake, since it was supposed to be in the nineties Saturday...  we had some much-needed shade in the spot we chose in the garden.  We have the best neighbors, if I've never mentioned it before.  Great people to have dinner parties with, who feed our cats when we're out of town, and who bring early birthday gifts unannounced (Thanks, Stephanie) and homemade peach pie (Thanks, Greta.) 

Here's a slideshow from the festivities:



In Kittenland, Daniel is now the size of an average pineapple, without the leaves.

Soon to come, what it feels like to be turning 35, and a hundredth post celebration, which probably just means more of the usual!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

a kangaroo baby, cute pictures of a kitten, and unflattering photos of moi

The kitten is acting less like a fuzzy little kitten and more like a ferocious kicking animal these days, and Karen felt him kick again this morning.  Clearly, he laid low until the gender scan, and now no one is safe.  I have learned that he very much dislikes me leaning forward, which I often do when I play laptop at home.  Right now he's flopping around, probably in a lunch-induced haze, much like I am. 

Here's some of the latest sonogram shots, since I keep neglecting to add them officially.  The strange reverse shadows are just from the little plastic covering sheet I keep over them at my desk.  Yep -- I'm the girl who puts sheet protectors over things sometimes.  You're shocked, I'm sure.
I have also realized that it is quite difficult to take a picture of oneself in the work bathroom, while pretending to be nonchalant in case someone enters.  Because, surely, I am not in here, taking a photo of myself with my phone.  Today's attempt:
I now leave you with some scenes from last night's volleyball game, when it was juuuuuuuust about to be dark, and I was so afraid of a darkened porta-potty that I walked all the way back from the courts to the bar...  Twice.

Also, has anyone noticed that you can't walk right anymore at 21 weeks?  All of a sudden, I notice that I'm the slowest walker in any group, and that I just feel funny when I walk.  Not in pain, but like I wasn't built for walking.  Odd.  Very odd. 

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

the kid can kick...

For the few weeks since I started feeling movement, Karen's been putting her hand on my belly.  So far, neither of us have felt anything from the outside, but that all changed last night.  Lounging after dinner, I noticed that he was pretty active.  Karen reached her hand out and BAM - he kicked us both -- hard!  It was probably the strongest kick I've felt, and the fact that she got to feel it too made it pretty cool.  The look on her face wasn't bad either.

Since we found out that he's a boy, everything's felt much more real.  From registering for big items to looking at Threadless onesies, I can't help but imagine him doing all sorts of little boy things.  I wonder if he'll kiss someone in kindergarten and get in trouble like I did.  I wonder if he'll be into sports or reading or both.  I think about how he'll smell.  I wonder what he'll be wearing the first time he smiles at us.
Also, I'd like to thank you all for your comments on baby tubs and wipe warmers and the like. I think I have beaten her into submission covinced her that we should try out lots of items to decide what we will need. 

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

registering for luxury items

We registered for a handful of basic items last night, mostly necessities with a few fun things added in.  I walked Karen through the choices I'd signed up for without her, and we got to the newborn-to-toddler tub.   I mentioned that it's a necessity, and how it allows us to bathe him in the tub or in the sink, and showed off the little hammock slingy thing.  She just smirked at me, and said that it's a 'luxury item' and how it's likely 'unnecessary'.  She began to tell me that people have been bathing billions of babies, likely without this item. 

I then decided that she'll be giving Daniel several baths without the infant tub, just to prove to me how easy it will be.

Monday, August 10, 2009

back to the grind

We're back from a week off and trying to get back into the swing of things.  I must admit that I feel very relaxed today...  I also realized that during vacation I somehow trained myself to eat almost constantly, so now I'm hungry almost constantly.  On the kitten front, we now call him Daniel and Danny and constantly use the correct pronoun when we refer to him.  It seems so much more real now that we know he's a boy, and I get the fun task of beginning to register for all the little (and not so little) gadgets and items that we'll need for him.  I can't believe that we're halfway done waiting for him...  blows my mind!

Vacation was terrific...  It was eventful and uneventful all at once.  We went on a big hike while the golfers golfed, and my niece Ally swung on an actual vine.  I tried, but ended up just lifting my feet for a second...  not quite Tarzan here.  We rented a boat and got Ally to touch a fish -- as evidenced in the pics.  We also ate.  I read about three pages in my book, which just shows you that we were just too busy playing Clue and swimming and napping to do anything productive.  :)


(slideshow on original post.)

Friday, August 7, 2009

It's a boy!!!


We had our appointment this morning and everything looks great!  The baby is a boy, he had the hiccups during our ultrasound, and my due date is still Christmas day.  He's thirteen ounces, which puts him in the ninety-second percentile for weight (and makes him the size of a cantaloupe.)  The tech and the doctor kept saying 'he's going to be a big baby!'  Afterward, we had lunch with the grandparents, where I had my first glass of wine in months and we got our first blue gift: a blanket from my parents.  It's been a great day already.

And now we know that we're having a boy!!!
--sonogram pictures to come

Friday, July 31, 2009

I'm out!

Fewer things are better than setting your Out of Office replies prior to a vacation.  I have been completely high on pending vacation fumes all day, and even the toughest problem I had at work today felt at least a little bit fun.  I need to figure out how to bottle this greatness and keep some for that day in October when I'll be fed up without a vacation in sight.  (Patent it and sell it, and make eleventy billion dollars.  Yeah, that's it.)

I learned today that the kitten is ten inches long now.  Ahem.  You read that correctly...  10!   Before, we only measured crown to rump and now we measure head to toe, which makes those little pudgy legs about 3.5 inches!  So, since I always round up, she's almost a foot long!  Almost as long as a piece of paper - Letter Size.  She's taller than a bottle of beer soda.  Now she only has another *gasp* ten to twelve inches to go.

Oh boy.  :)

Pics and stories to come from vacation.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

unsightly and asymmetrical







This is an actual photograph of me, taken earlier today.  I'd like to point out the light scribbly lines that have appeared on the left side of my belly button.  Not only is this unsightly, but seemingly unnecessary...  Isn't skin stretchy? 

At least grow evenly so things distort in a symmetrical manner, kitten.  JEEZ!

the waiting game

I don't know what I'll do when the countdown is over, aside from changing diapers and rocking a lot.  I have lived day-to-day for months, waiting for a date that's five months away, and it feels so normal now.  We're heading into the twentieth week, which in the beginning sounded the way 30 years old sounds to a teenager: forever away.  But along with getting used to the waiting, I've gotten used to the little changes I've made; I don't think twice about going out to eat and not having a drink.  I don't miss eating turkey or swanky cheeses.  I've gotten used to the changing body shape and I'm resigned to the fact that none of my pants fasten.  But as I write this, I realize this could all be chalked up to my being very easily amused. 

Let's hope this amusement lasts right through labor and well into the first few weeks years decades.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

a million reasons why

I started thinking about having kids in my early twenties, and ever since I've been planning out all the things I will get to share with them: music, movies, science, the sky, why I love reading, why family is important...   All the usual stuff, I'm sure.  But today I read a passage from Catherine Newman's articles Bringing Up Ben & Birdie and I realized that I really want kids because they are hilarious.

     "And poor, napless Ben is just a weepy wreck by dinnertime. I ran a bath for him the other evening, hoping to relax him a little before bed. But then he didn't want to get in, so I got in and relaxed by myself while Ben stood naked on the bathmat and unraveled into desperate, tired shreds of himself: "Are you getting out now? Are you? Come on, Mama, here's your towel." At one point he was rooting around under the sink and emerged with a fistful of Tampax. "Hey, Mama," he said as he held them out to me like a bouquet, "do you need any of these tampons?" But then he lost his grip on them and they dropped into the tub and he had a complete nervous breakdown over it. The wrappers were all disintegrating and the tampons began blooming into their wet alien-rodent shapes, and Ben was trying to gather them up, sobbing, "What are these? What's happening?" Maybe I'll write to the good folks at Calgon and see if they want to come shoot some commercials over here ..."

I basically want kids so I can laugh at with them.  :) 

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

the good, the great and the horribly embarrassing

The good:
  • I get to eat every two hours or so, and have still lost two pounds since the beginning
  • Our nights have fallen into an easy pattern of making dinner, cleaning up and then crap TV lounging
  • Every week, I have a new tidbit of information to focus on and a bigger bump to run into things with
  • I get to drink cranberry juice when we go out
The great:
  • The movements are almost daily now
  • I've decided that the kitten is a girl
  • I sleep like an absolute rock, even after multiple bathroom breaks
  • In lieu of bars, we go to the movies most weekends (hello, theater popcorn!)
The horribly embarrassing:
  • I drop food into the neck of my shirt almost daily now
  • I am single-handedly turning the condo into a gas chamber
  • I unwittingly burped aloud at my desk the other day
Obviously, I have no insider information about the sex of the kitten, but I have a hunch that she'll be a she.  And admittedly, most of the things I've chosen to look forward to involve food and fruity beverages, but I figure there are worse things.  As for the rest, perhaps some of the embarrassing pieces would ease up if I stopped eating every two hours, but then what would I write about?  Sheesh.

Monday, July 27, 2009

old and new

Old and new.  :)
By the way, the counter above where Karen's seen cutting veggies? 
That was the only surface we had in the whole kitchen before we remodeled. 

guilty pleasures and a week left of work

After leaving the room and returning yesterday, Karen realized a very important fact: when she leaves, I immediately turn on crap TV.  I have no idea when this started, but it's absolutely true -- any season of the Real World or Big Brother, NYC Prep, Gossip Girl, or my personal fave, 90210, and I'm in a state of brain-melting heaven.  I don't often let her see this side of me, even though it doesn't surprise her in the least.  It's one of those guilty pleasures I tend to keep to myself, with a box of Triscuits and a can of pop nearby.  Well, she's kind of stuck with me...  best she knows all this stuff now, before I'm covered in spit-up!

In other news, we only have one week of work left before V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N!  (Can we, for a moment, discuss how difficult it is to type in caps, with hyphens?)  In one short week, we will be sitting lakeside, some of us with drinks in hand, soaking in the sun and basking in the non-workishness of it all.  Atwood week is one of my absolute favorite times, and I turn into a child a few days before each visit.  I still remember being so excited about an impending trip that I would routinely throw up in anticipation.  Let's hope that doesn't happen this time.  The day after we get back from vaca, we have our anatomy scan and lunch with the grandparents.  All in all, this is looking like it will be the perfect week, and I'm already riding high on just the idea of it. 

In the nineteenth week, the kitten is now about 6½ inches crown to rump, and is sprouting hair on her head!  The sites all compare her to a mango now, but I don't believe I've ever seen a mango that big.  I tried to google 6.5 inches to get a clip art picture to add to this post, but only found penis size comparisons.  Let's stick with a mango, shall we?  :)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

another thursday update

I had another routine appointment this morning - the kitten is doing very well, and moved around a lot while the doctor checked her heartbeat. Today's BPM was 150, right on target. The doctor says that everything looks great, which is always nice to hear. Next is the anatomy scan on August 7th. I wonder if we'll have to switch up our pronouns; we've been calling the kitten 'her' for months. I also learned that the swoosh of the doppler is my favorite sound on the planet, and that I am incapable of listening to it without crying. And... hyperbole is the best thing ever.

On the homefront, the kitchen remodel is complete, and we are only waiting for the new barstools to arrive. As soon as that happens, I will post pictures so you can ooh and ahh, and so we can pretend that anyone likes it as much as we do.

I originally omitted the story about the 24-hour urine collection fun, but what kind of blogger would I be then? (I can hear Carrie saying 'a blogger I don't mind reading...') For a little background, they like to test kidney function when blood pressure could be an issue, and I used to have elevated blood pressure. So I worked from home, and didn't leave the house once.  There wasn't much to it, except for the fact that Karen's brother was working at the condo yesterday and probably wondered what the hell that strange thing behind the toilet was. And, I was a little anxious about waking up in the middle of the night and forgetting (*gasp) that I was not allowed to go to the bathroom like a normal person. Everything went smoothly, and I did not sleepwalk into the bathroom once. I did, however, have a bizarre dream about the urine delivery, and how I had to drive with it in a take-out soup container. Gotta love pregnant dreams.

Next week: the last week of work before Vacation Week / Anatomy Scan Week / The Best Week EVER.

Monday, July 20, 2009

you're money, kid

In the eighteenth week, the kitten is now longer than a dollar bill.  It's amazing to me that things happen so quickly!  I have a montly appointment on Thursday when we'll get the go-ahead for our BIG ULTRASOUND!  Pretty exciting stuff, relatively speaking.  We had a fun-filled weekend with naps, movies, a local street festival, and the highly anticipated Hot Dog Garden Picnic.  The hot dogs were spectacular, in case you're keeping score.


In other news, I still have not received my Biology textbook, nor have I received the plethora of packages of clothing I ordered last week.  Shippers -- are you not aware of the importance of receiving packages in my life?  I'm suddenly a five-year old who really needs to get the mail in case that all-important card from Grandma comes today.  If I weren't so excited to start studying (and wearing new clothes?) I might be embarrassed.

p.s.  I saw a few pictures of myself from not-so-flattering angles yesterday and wonder, do all women feel unbelievably fat at this point?  I realize that I've actually lost weight since getting pregnant, and that the additional roundness is from the kitten growing, but WOW do I feel self-conscious.  I am ready for this phase to be over, thanks.

Friday, July 17, 2009

The one I look least like a house in

It is truly difficult to take these pictures yourself...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

An open letter to the guy in the white van

Dear sir,

I realize that you have places to be; we all have places to be, and we'd all prefer not to be stuck in this construction-zone traffic jam.  Perhaps you didn't notice that everyone had chosen to drive only in the left lane, since the right lane will be closed in half a mile.  Perhaps this is the first time you've driven this stretch of road in the past month, and were unaware of the closure.  Something tells me, however, that you knew something was amiss when people began to honk their horns at you as you flew past them in an effort to avoid waiting four minutes.  I wished with my whole body that no one would let you in.  I try to avoid the cost of getting angry over petty driving arrogance, but this was probably the twentieth time I've seen someone try this move.  I've imaginarily patted-on-the-back the brave souls who move their vehicles to the center of the two lanes, in an effort to block the type of behavior you exhibited today.  I wish I had thought of doing just that when I saw you creeping up from a quarter-mile back.  And it was obvious that you thought little of the anxiety you caused as I passed you after the traffic cleared, only to see you yawn with blasé indifference.

I wish you ill will, sir -- ILL WILL!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Not everyone gets jokes

Last night, I went to the farmers market again, and then we went next door to Stephanie's for homemade ice cream.  Newsflash:  The kitten loves ice cream - it was honey vanilla with carmel corn, and it was in a cone.  She's also planning a hot dog cookout this weekend with all the trimmings for a bunch of friends.  I don't know if I've mentioned my love of hot dogs, but I've only had a few that were very well cooked in the past four months.  This Sunday, I plan to have at least ELEVEN two!
Aaaaaaaand, onto the joke that I had to explain to Karen. 
**if the image didn't transfer to FB, click on View Original Post below.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Energy² -- maybe energy³

I am finally back to the old Susan... Maybe even Susan 2.0!  I signed up for school yesterday, got home and cleaned the bedroom, emptied and refilled dresser drawers and closet space with things that will fit me for the next five months, and then went out to dinner.  We met Rich and Melissa afterward, and stayed out until midnight.  I may need to repeat that: I was not horizontal the second I walked in the house from work.  Hooray!!!

The kitten is also now the size of your open hand.  Crazy to me, since three months ago the kitten was the size of a poppy seed.  I'm also starting to pop out in a way that makes me look less like a donut fan and more like a pregnant woman.  And with all this energy and poppage comes a happy, more relaxed -- and more motivated -- Susan.  Even on seven hours of sleep I feel like a million bucks.  We're Will is finishing up the last details of the kitchen remodel this week and things are finally starting to look like they're falling into place. Just in time for more chaos!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Blame the onion-sized baby

Shifting gears from the baby updates for a moment to bring you this breaking news:

I'm going back to school.

I have no idea where this came from, since the classes I have left for my degree are pretty much the standard liberal arts requirements of marketing and statistics and economics, OH MY, that I put off until now.  But it reminds me of a quote that my mom would repeat whenever I would tell her how much time I had left before graduating: The time will pass whether I'm in school or not.

At first, I was all excited to get a photography degree.  That is, until I realized that a) work will not pay for it, b) I'd start over as a freshman, and c) I'd have to take DRAWING.  So, after reviewing my transcripts and all that goodness, I will be a student again majoring in Management Information Systems.  By my estimation, I have about twenty classes, or roughly two years left.  I will graduate about when the kitten does.  But, I will not be bored in the meantime!

In kitten news, he or she is now the size of an onion, and can now blink her eyes.  Over the weekend, I felt a lot of movement all in one day.  I loved it.

Friday, July 10, 2009

aaaaaaand, we're back to fruit

The kitten is now the size of an avocado, and if you're like me, you're asking, 'Isn't an avocado smaller than a navel orange?'   I just measured a can of pop, and it's about 4.5 inches tall.  my baby is now the size of a can of pop!  Wow.  I should really write these comparisons from now on. 
Not much has changed, though I occasionally feel the kitten make vague movements.  Nothing very strong, and nothing that Karen can feel from the outside, but movement all the same.  They are getting more pronounced than they were a week or two ago, so I'm thinking I just felt them early; the other option is that I'm crazy -- either is completely possible.  And I'd like to understand, what's up with the dry eyes thing?  My eyes feel like a fan is following me around on HIGH.  Good times.
I'm told that the baby can now hear my voice, so I'm singing a lot.  I must say, it's nice to have a captive audience!  Still tired most days by about 3pm, (and still taking a 15-minute nap every afternoon) but not that horrid marathon-tired feeling I had.  I also got a pair of jeans from eBay, and I love them.  Between the ones I got a few weeks ago and my belly band, I'm set.  (Or so I think.  Mwah ah ah.)
Yesterday, one of my friends brought me a vanilla Frosty, which was a pretty nice gesture.  She said that people used to get them for her when she was pregnant, and I've decided to try to milk this for as much swag as I can.  :) 
Thanks, Jay!

Monday, July 6, 2009

Weekly update

There is very little going on that isn't pregnancy-related for me these days.  Crazy dreams have become the norm, and it's a good day when they don't completely freak me out before I get out of bed.  (Case in point: thin four-foot-long snakes that I was pulling out from underneath my fingernails.  I couldn't make this stuff up...)  I've also learned that leaning over isn't quite what it used to be...  It's like I have a pillow in my lap that's painlessly keeping me from reaching things.  I've lost some weight since my pregnancy started, so even though I feel like a house, apparently I'm not officially house-sized yet; we'll see if that trend continues -- yesterday, the kitten desperately wanted some potato chips, so I'm not holding my breath.

Here is where I'll rant about maternity clothes.  First of all, I understand that people are excited to show off their bumps, but if my bump is very barely-there, why accentuate it?  I bought a few tops and have been wearing them more often, and WOW do they make me look huge.  I'm sure they'll look darling when I'm beach-ball-esque, but I'm not used to them yet.  Also, why is it that pants are either too small or too big?  My old jeans are just snug enough to be truly uncomfortable, and my maternity jeans fall down just enough to show that lovely skin-colored belly band when I walk.  (Skin-colored?  Really?  Couldn't make it, I don't know...  NAVY?)  In the grand scheme, these are petty concerns, but I enjoy ranting almost as much as I enjoy wearing pants that don't descend to my knees.

Three weeks until our next OB appointment, which means 3-4 weeks until our anatomy scan.  YEY!!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

holy moodiness, Batman!

I was feeling a little bit sad for a few days.  I've had little to no energy for weeks, and by yesterday, it started to feel like more than just being a little sad:  I started to feel like I did when I quit smoking - kind of anxious, and just thoroughly ungood.  I was dreading making dinner, dreading sitting lifeless on the couch for another night.  I was googling depression in pregnancy, certain that I'd be grumpy and unhappy for the next five months, and then --uh-oh -- even after!! 

Stop yourself, Susan. 

When I got home, I saw signs for our local farmers market.  I grabbed my iPod, walked over there and dropped $50 on good local stuff: tomatoes, kale chips, pork chops, zucchini bread, fresh pasta, and a little bundle of daisies and mint.  I had no idea I'd have that much fun shopping in a park, but I was like a new girl. 

And continue to be a new girl today.  I'm in a superb mood...  ON FIRE good, like I have been drinking gallons of caffeine, won the lottery and woke up and exercised.  I'm trying to just enjoy it, but I had to write it down for those days that are likely to revisit, when I'll find myself feeling like dirt.  Everything changes, and apparently, makes up for making you feel blah by giving you more energy than you had before you were pregnant. 

Maybe I'll clean the bathroom when I get home. 
*smirks at Karen*...  Maybe!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Favorite new blog: Let's Panic About Babies!


http://www.lets-panic.com/



It's only now, after many months of reading the scary books, and checking the daunting blogs, that I can laugh at this.  And, I must admit, I laugh a lot.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

it's already Thursday, and we're moving away from fruit!!!

We went down to Atwood Lake with family for Father's Day, and stayed to enjoy some golf, some wine, or some grape juice, depending on who you ask.  It was a very nice time, and I haven't felt that relaxed in ages. We're heading back there in about a month and I can hardly wait.  Also, it seems that if you go on vacation on a Sunday and return to work on Thursday, the week FLIES.

We're already in the middle of the 14th week (13w4d) and we had another OB appointment yesterday. We heard the heartbeat again, and of course I cried. We also found out two interesting things: We will have our anatomy scan (aka: the search for privates) in the next month or so, and I will be participating in a 24-hour urine collection to gather baseline information about kidney function. I am excited about one of these; let's see if you can guess which one.

Also important, we are no longer comparing the kitten to produce -- this week, (s)he is the size of a clenched fist.  I've begun to feel something that I assume is the beginnings of quickening.  Nothing like a jab, but kind of like when your eye twitches, only relocated into your uterus.  It's early to feel anything according to the interwebs, but just try to convince me that I'm mistaken.  I've got a few clenched fists that will tell you otherwise.  :)

Friday, June 19, 2009

what's in a name, part deux

Interesting: Hazel was the 18th most popular name in 1897.
Also interesting: Today it's the 343rd most popular name.

Priceless:  I get to call her Hazelnut.  :)


P.S. We do not know the sex yet, but I saw this coffee in the lunchroom and felt like a genius for thinking up the nickname. :)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

what's in a name?

We've had names picked out for weeks now, so we've decided to announce them so all our friends can't steal them and use them for their own pending children.  (Brilliant, isn't it?)

If we have a boy, his name will be:
Daniel Shaniuk Kennedy

and if we have a girl, her name will be:
Hazel Kennedy Shaniuk

We decided months ago that we'd split the last name decision by sex, since we both like our last names.  We'll likely find out the sex in the next 4-8 weeks, and we're both very excited to know.  So far, we're just having a baby.  By then, we'll be having a girl or a boy.  It's the little things.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

It IS starting to feel real

As much as we still feel strange when one of us says 'Hey, we're having a BABY,' it's getting a little more normal to think about.  I still can't get over the fact that she is in there, moving around like a little soccer player.  Karen said that I'll be in serious trouble when she gets to be a little bigger and I feel her kicking those goals.  I'm more focused on the fact that someday she has to exit my bod.  I'm pretending not to focus on that, but it's tough.

Also cool is the fact that I get to document all this, and have not only friends and family comment, but also other people in my situation, whose blogs I read.  Very cool of you to stop by, Melissa, A. and S.   Thank you!

It's volleyball night tonight, and of course, it's pouring out.  May  be an excuse for a little additional couch time, of which I can't seem to get enough these days.

Have a good Wednesday, all.  :)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

New Pictures - oh, and she's a peach. :)



I woke up so excited, you'd think I was expecing presents. We had our nuchal translucency scan today which means 'BONUS ULTRASOUND!' So exciting every time it happens. Today, we found the kitten completely asleep, which caught me off guard. The ultrasound technician showed us the heartbeat, and measured the base of the kitten's neck, and almost as soon as the technician was done, the baby began doing little bouncey moves off the walls of her little room. I laughed so hard we lost the picture for a moment. She's measuring just where she should be, size is 'perfect' (and for those of you playing along at home, she's the size of a peach) and she had a strong heartbeat of 168bmp. I can't stop looking at these pictures. She's sucking her thumb in the top one. And she's got huge lips. Go ahead, try to stop looking. It's not humanly possible.




At least for me. :)


Monday, June 15, 2009

Welcome to the thirteenth week

We have an ultrasound appointment tomorrow.  I found affordable maternity jeans online.  My  head is killing me today.

You know what they say about two out of three...

Friday, June 12, 2009

good stuff

I've noticed a few good changes lately, and figured maybe I should list the good with the bad: good hair, strong nails, and everything tastes great.  Carrie told me about the difference in food, and I figure it's nature making up for taking away lunchmeat, soft cheeses and alcohol.  I had a subway sandwich with chicken today that was so good, I should've gotten a foot-long.  I'm drinking cran-grape juice that is better than chocolate.

I'm still pretty tired by the end of the day, and I still take an almost daily afternoon nap in one of our darkened conference rooms.  The trade-off for feeling hit by a truck: amazingly creative dreams.  In the past week, I have been involved in a bank heist, been on vacation somewhere they didn't speak English, jumped over buildings, and gotten into a huge fight with my mother because I didn't like her drawing in a coloring book.  Needless to say, it's better than the movies, and occasionally, it's refreshing to wake up and find that I'm not disowned or in jail.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

a LEMON, ladies and gentlemen

Since all the websites and email generators compare the fetus with fruit, imagine my delight to learn that Hazel / Daniel is now the size of a lemon!!!  Now that's big!  My uterus is also the size of a softball, and I have the belly to prove it.  I'll post some obligatory belly shots as soon as I get over my vanity and admit that this probably isn't just bloating anymore.

Also, it seems to be the time of constant bathroom trips again -- happened in the very beginning and it's happening again.  From what I read (and read, and read) this is because the uterus is cramped and growing out of my pelvis, which also may explain the pot belly. 

Five days until our ultrasound, and ten days until vacation.  Twelve days until our next OB appointment, where she's tentatively promised that we will hear the heartbeat using a doppler. Everything is now a countdown, I'm learning.  197 days until Christmas and D-date, which is only 28 weeks away.  Time is flying and crawling at the same time.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

slacker blogger

Before we were pregnant, I wrote religiously about everything thought and felt.  Now that we're pregnant, I'm pretty boring.  I suppose I do continue to look chubbier -- yey me!  We also have another ultrasound next week.  I can't wait to see how big the kitten has gotten.

Tonight's volleyball, and if you ever forget what night volleyball is on, just look at the forecast for the rainy night.  Since I'm a delicate flower these days, I will be on the sidelines taking pictures. 

Monday, June 8, 2009

the kitten's newest paparazzi photo

The best part is we get to have another ultrasound a week from tomorrow!

Friday, June 5, 2009

feeling a little more relaxed

After the last entry, the spotting returned, and was heavier than before.  I had the obligatory freak out, called Karen and mom crying, and made an appointment for an ultrasound.  When they squeeze you into the imaging department, there's a likely wait, and they even told me to bring a book.  I didn't even really mind the two-hour wait, since mom and dad kept me company.  The scan showed that all is well, we got a new picture of the kitten (whose head is now about half the size of her body -- crazy) and the doctor told us that spotting is common, and that we were the third person that day to come in with that concern.  She also said that my baby had the best outlook of all three, a strong heartbeat at 178bpm, and he was even waving at us -- much like the animation to the right.  I'll post the sonogram when I get home. 

I used to tease Karen about how I desperately wanted hot dogs and feta cheese.  I figured we were being overly cautious.  After this week, I no longer joke.  I'm just happy that everything is going well, and I can wait until January for a hot dog.

Oh, and they updated my due date.  I am now due on Christmas day.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Fifteen minute car naps

I just took a tiny naplet in my car, and can't remember the last time that I could successfully get in a whole nap in fifteen minutes.  I take one almost every day now.  The people who were out smoking behind the building either didn't notice that I emerged from a non-running vehicle, or were at least silent about it.

bit of a scary morning

I woke up to a tiny bit of spotting today.  Nothing bad, nothing bright red, but enough to send hormonal, dramatic me into a bit of a tailspin.  Karen's in Milwaukee for a few days, so I immediately googled possible causes and outcomes.  Note to self:  never do this.  I spoke to Karen a little while later, and she was calm and rational, and told me to relax and call the office.  They took my info and said they'd 'return my call within the day.'  Clearly, not an emergency, so I went to work.  Finally, I spoke with the doctor's nurse, who told me not to worry, that it's common.  While I figured this in the back of my mind, I still worried. I have had no sighting since first thing this morning, though I check diligently every hour or so...  I still have a stomach ache.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

It's official -- this baby LOVES Arby's




I have lost the taste for almost all meat, except for the heavenly goodness that is the Arby's Roast Beef Sandwich. I think I should start eating them every day, since they're so damn good. Definitely the highlight of my culinary week.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

crazy amazon hair

I have read many articles and books on pregnancy, but have never been warned about the crazy hair. I truly look like an aboriginal woman, straight from the forest, where someone was nit-picking through the bees' nest on my head. I will now show you a picture that you will be kind about, and say 'Oh, your hair looks healthy and voluminous.' It looks like I didn't bother to brush it. I figure I'll just pretend I've been out partying all night, and make people jealous with stories of rock stars and my rapidly expanding beer belly.






Friday, May 22, 2009

All's well

We had our first OB appointment yesterday, and to my dismay, we did not have another ultrasound.  She says that my uterus is growing as expected, and we're scheduling an Ultrasound appointment for the week of June 8th.  I did have my first (few) bouts of serious morning (afternoon, evening) sickness and I can officially say that I am not a fan.  But they're few and far between, and so far happen when we're in the car and I'm a passenger.  My bloated belly is also starting to look more like a fat belly.  I fear that this will get worse before it gets better.

We did have a nice time at Sisters' Dinner last night.  Thanks for all the stories, everyone!  Thanks, also, to Jenni, who may have actually put me at ease a bit about birth.  Way to go, Jen.  :)

More later...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

that's sick... just sick!

After breakfast yesterday, my stomach felt a little strange.  Nothing horrible, but not normal.  It reminded me of the incident the other day when we were in the car for a five minute drive and I felt very nauseous.  I also figured this was what I get for announcing that I'm not feeling any morning sickness whatsoever.  But yesterday seemed a little more like the flu.  I was sick to my stomach before I got in the car for work, and again a few hours later.  I felt icky most of the day, and stayed on the couch until Karen came home from work. 

So, why is my crazy brain worried that things aren't going well?  It's been eleven days since we heard the heartbeat, and were told that we're 98% sure to carry to term, but still I worry.  I'm not visiting the bathroom as often, and in my mind this is cause for concern.  Sure, I still wake up at least once a night to go to the bathroom, but still...  there is no place for logic here, people.  I haven't been falling-over-tired like I was at first, so I worry.  I read too many symptoms of problems in the wonderful 'What To Expect' emails, and I worry.  I hope this phase passes soon so I can go back to just being excited.

But I do have my first real OB appt on Thurdsday.  I'm hoping for a real big-girl ultrasound.  :)  See, it's not all pessimism;  just partly cloudy.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

learning to respect Creed, or my fall from coolness

Friday was a great day:  good ultrasound appointment, went to see a chick flick, half-day of work, sunny skies.  Nothing on the horizon as mildly unpleasant all day long.  Until Karen mentioned that there was likely a Creed song to sum up how we felt. 

Susan:  what are you talking about?
Karen:  the Creed song, about having a baby
S: there's no such song.  They're a Christian rock band, I don't remember any songs about babies.
K: google their most popular song's lyrics.

(pause)

**tearing up.

(pause)

K: read them out loud

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
(sob)
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
(sniff)
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

And I'd like to pretend I'm oh-so-cool, but even as I copy and paste these cheeseball lyrics, tears are streaming down my face.  I have heard this song a hundred times, and never realized it was about babies.  And now, suddenly, I am not cool.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Ultrasound results


Everything's going as planned!! We saw and heard the heartbeat -- 122 beats per minute, and the kitten is .83 cm, or about the size of a gummy bear.

I'm so excited, I can't stop smiling :)
It is starting to feel real now!
Still no morning sickness, pretty tired after 4pm but not much else :)

Thursday, May 7, 2009

apparent pregnancy brain

Tonight, we Karen began putting together our kitchen cabinets.  There's hammering and other tool usage, and midway through she asked me to grab her some Advil from the bathroom.  I remember grabbing them, I stopped at the fridge to fill a water glass, took a drink of water from it, changed the pregnancy count on the fridge, and then realized I had no idea where I'd put the Advil.  Pockets were checked, every surface in our rapidly running-out-of-surfaces-kitchen was checked, but to no avail.  I did, however, find a tiny piece of metal on the floor that only microscopes could likely find.  So, at least I have some skills...

We still can't figure it out.  I had to admit that I may have switched on auto-pilot, and taken them, and immediately forgotten.  Of course, I freaked out -- Advil is not advised for use by pregnant women -- and figured I should induce vomiting in an attempt to save my unborn child.  When that didn't work, I asked my midwife friend if I should worry, checked the internet to make myself even more worried, and I resigned myself to the fact that I may have taken them and I may have lost them, and that things would likely be fine.  Either way, I am officially no longer responsible for anything at all.  Just in case...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

nope -- still hasn't hit me yet

Heading to the bathroom for the twenty-fourth time today, I realized that this whole pregnancy thing hasn't really hit me yet.  I am very excited to tell people and talk about it, but in reality it's not much different than when I'd daydream about what it might be like to be pregnant.  I'm not sure if that's because it's so early, or because I'm not sick yet.  The one thing I have definitely felt is lethargy.  I am so tired from the moment I pick my head up from the pillow until the moment I lay it back down.  I am ready for several naps in the day, even though the work fascists current workplace standards frown upon naps.

I am definitely looking forward to the ultrasound Friday -- it feels like a big milestone after a week and a half of no blood tests; clearly, I need progress reports.  I have found there is only so much pregnancy info out there, though.  Between my emails from Fit Pregnancy, WhatToExpect and the American Pregnancy Association, I know what part of our baby is growing every second, and what I can expect in the next few days.  I can't imagine how people did it before, without a constant reminder of everything hitting the inbox at the same time. 

Also, why on earth did no one warn me about the bloating?  It's not a great look for me, I'm sorry to report.

More updates as pseudo-interesting things occur.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

6 week update with names

We're in our seventh week.  (In our sixth week?)  I am even having a hard time understanding how the many different publications and doctors count these damn weeks. 

Yesterday I learned a valuable lesson the hard way -- doing too much all weekend long makes your body fight back.  I was at work for about an hour and felt like a bus had hit me.  So I went home and slept.  All day long.  It felt nice, and my  worries about not being able to sleep through the night were unfounded.  Slept like a baby even after a five hour nap.  I guess that whole 'you need to get more rest' thing isn't just a wives' tale.

We have a few new names on the list...  Let us know what you think:

The boy's name is pretty much decided upon:
Daniel Shaniuk Kennedy

Girls' names are still up in the air:
Emily
Emma
Piper
Lily
Lucy
Clover
Addison*
Olive
Hazel
Etta


That's it for now.  The list changes daily, so stay tuned for updates.

And, for the anonymous commenter who wanted to know how to speak directly to the kitten, (hi, mom), my advice is to wait about seven months.  She'll likely be welcoming guests then.



*we will not be naming our baby Addison.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

heartburn relief

I read that a handful of almonds would help a tough case of heartburn, and the pregnancy books were right. I can't believe how right they were. Spicy foods, here I come. :)

everything's going swimmingly

The numbers from yesterday's bloodwork were better than expected: 1077.  Next Friday we have our first ultrasound at 2pm, and from there we will likely be released to my Obstetrician.  Wow.

:)  good day!

Monday, April 27, 2009

in lieu of beta results...

I thought I'd update you on my hair, because hair is just so darn interesting.  My hair has stopped falling out altogether.  (we have a little hair trap on the shower drain, which I normally have to clear daily.)  If you're not familiar with this strange occurrance, elevated estrogen levels cause hair to remain on your head longer than it does for the average bear.  Not a bad side-effect!  :)

The lab apparently messed up and forgot to run my bloodwork today, so I'm just a ball of nerves all over again.  I'm sure things are fine, but the possibilities coupled with the nurse's response to my name: 'Oh, I'm so sorry, Susan' were enough to kill me.  She was only apologizing for the lab's delay, of course.  If only the baby would send little emails every few days; tell me what's  going on in her life, what she's seen in town, that sort of thing.  For now, I'll wait for the ultrasound that we should have in the next week.  *sigh.

just another manic monday

Saturday's numbers were right where the doctor expected them. - 442.  I went again this morning, and the doctor said that hopefullly after today we'd send me for an ultrasound.  I still don't think it's truly hit me yet. 

What has hit me is this weather!!!  It's been in the eighties for days now, WE TURNED OUR AIR CONDITIONING ON IN APRIL.  So bizarre. 

I'll update with numbers when they come in today :)

Friday, April 24, 2009

between appointments

I have realized that all that anxiety of the dreaded TwoWeekWait is not a precursor to horrible things for nine months-- at least not yet.  Life has gone back to almost  normal, except that I don't need to be nervous about periods starting or whether the test will be positive when I get home like it was on my lunch hour.  I'm trying out this new thing I read about called 'patience'.  I don't think I've had it before, but I'll tell you how it goes.  Basically, we go about our lives, with fewer trips to the local pubs, and time passes. 

I am reminded often that things can go wrong, though.  I read several blogs of women who are, or recently were trying to conceive, and two of the few I read have had miscarriages in the first trimester and have since stopped blogging.  I have also read that once we hear that heartbeat, our chances for miscarriage go down to 2% -- which I misread the first time as 'chance for miscarriage reduces by 2%', which I didn't think would reduce my worry much at all.  So we're biding our time for the next few weeks, informed about what could happen, but optimistic and shopping and picking baby names.  (And, I realize that last sentence just negated any pragmatic feel I was hoping to inject into this post.)

Last night, we saw This American Life LIVE!, and it was absolutely terrific.  The show we saw at the theater will be broadcast on NPR either next weekend or the following weekend, and it was unbelievably entertaining.  Ira Glass was very funny, making jokes with the audience as well as the guests.  We saw sad stories, funny stories, love stories...  My favorite might've been Joss Whedon, who showed us his songwriting skills on the piano, while talking about how people pick apart movies far too much in DVD commentaries.  All in all, a terrific show, and well worth the money spent for a night out.  And, of course, I got to have the ever-important theater popcorn. 

Tomorrow is the fourth beta test, and we should know more then. Yey!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

betas are back (again)

hCG is 163, Prog is 62.6.   She says that they usually send people for an ultrasound after the hCG hits 1,000, but she's hoping that they can send me for an early one after Saturday's beta.  (yep, another beta.)

Things are moving along as expected which is always good to hear after you have scary dreams about numbers not doubling.  Can I turn my brain off until I give birth?

Monday, April 20, 2009

beta numbers

Hello, all.

My beta numbers are back from this morning, and we are at 77 hCG, and 54.2 Progesterone, so everything is looking good.  :) 

(We were around 32 hcg, 41 progesterone if I heard the doctor correctly on Saturday.)

I go back on Wednesday for another beta. 


Yey!!!!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Go team!


Overheard at Jon's birthday party, as we were leaving:
A: so, which one of you took the pregnancy test?
B: Susan did
A: okay, cause when you walked in, I was thinking to myself, 'they're both girls, it could be either one...' Since I wasn't sure who I was congratulating, I just said: 'Go Team!'  *thumbs up*

Saturday, April 18, 2009

It's official! Doctor's office said it looks like a single implantation, and all my levels are normal. I go back Monday morning to check my beta levels again. I can still think of nothing else, but I did manage to nap for twenty minutes.

wow

Apparently, when you wake up at 4:30 to take a pregnancy test, it's not always easy to fall back to sleep when this is the answer:

Something in the back of my mind thought maybe there was something wrong with yesterday's test. It looks like that thought was wrong. I'll post my beta test results later today.

Oh, yes... My due date is predicted to be December 28, 2009. :)

Friday, April 17, 2009

typical friday afternoon

I am the girl who used to open her Christmas presents early, then make sure they were somewhat-professionally rewrapped, so as not to draw attention to my unwrapping techniques.

I used to read detailed reviews for movies I had yet to see.

I have read the occasional last page of a book prior to the preceeding pages.

I am running out of euphemisms for being impatient.

Today I took a pregnancy test at work on my lunch hour.  I got a faint positive result.  It's certainly faint, but it is most definitely there. 

(A check with the internets and my doctor's office says that usually means good things, and that any line at all other than the control line usually means you're pregnant.  I've included a picture, to prove I'm not  completely seeing things.)  We have an early morning appointment for my first Beta test.  (A test to check my hCG levels - basically, we look for these levels to double about every two days in early pregnancy.  We will monitor these for a few days for some reason I don't know yet.) 

For those of you who skimmed that, I said it looks like we're pregnant.  We'll know for sure tomorrow.

:)  Thanks for impatiently waiting with me.  This has been the LONGEST THREE HOURS OF MY LIFE, for reference.  I can't believe I waited this long to tell you. :)

nothing's new

I don't know why I'm compelled to keep posting when I have no news... 

:)

when I see my mother log onto her IM at 9:30am...

...  I figure she's looking for an update.  No news is good news.  :)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

no fun updates yet

... but I did realize that I am not even remotely patient am far more patient than I thought.  I haven't taken a test yet...  today.  (Let's just forget about the test I bought on my lunch hour yesterday.)

i'd like to concentrate on anything, but alas, it is not in the cards

Hello, all.  CD26 here.  The day we all hope to not get any updates at all, cause that may mean good things.  Except I am now rationalizing that we triggered later than normal, and our usual timing may be a bit off.   But I'm trying not to obsess.  See me, not obsessing?  It's exhausting.

I'm loving the sunshine, so I'm attributing my exceptional mood to the nice weather.  (Hello, spring!)  We also made reservations for a wine tasting for next week, figuring that if we plan for activities that are verboten during pregnancy, then surely we will be pregnant for them.  See how I did that?  It's a little thing I like to call bad logic. 

So far, it's working well for me.

Let's see, what else is new?  I made the best tortellini I've ever had last night, with some chicken and rosemary filling.  Those refrigerated-pasta people know what they're doing.  I have some new clean-freak thing going on, too.  I believe I've been replaced with a housework-loving clone.  It's the only reasonable explanation I can think of. 
I can almost guarantee more nonsensical rants in the near future.  Thanks for playing.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

tuesday

I haven't been updating, because I have absolutely no symptoms or signs.  Nada.  Carrie, in her infinite wisdom, has decided that the absence of all signs may be a sign.  Bravo, üb!  I am loving that logic.  I am, however, doing well at forgetting almost every thought that enters my brain.  Yesterday I forgot to grab my keys from Karen's car before she left.  Today, I forgot to grab my cards and cash.  I had to un-origami the dollar bill pig at my desk to get my morning diet coke fix.  Sad state of affairs, I tell you.  I'll try to think of something dramatic to write about later, just to keep you all involved.

Quick aside, if you aren't already watching Breaking Bad, you should be.  It's an amazing show on AMC about a high-school chemistry teacher who decides he should cook crystal meth.  I'm not giving anything away that you don't learn in the first five minutes of the pilot, but it is spectacular.  We got the first season on DVD from Will, and blew through it in two  nights.  Now we have to catch up on season two.  A fine diversion for a girl who is already counting the minutes until Thursday morning.

Update:  I am so forgetful, that I clicked past my own blog entry in my RSS reader, and saw the 'Breaking Bad' comment, and was ALL excited that someone else also loves the show.  Seriously, took a few minutes to read it, was impressed that it sounded like something I'd write.   Good God, people...  I'll be lucky if I remember my way home tonight!!!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

if only this were a comletely anonymous blog...

...  I'd be able to explain to you in grotesque detail just how unbelievably sore my breasts are.  I am seriously considering tying them up when I get home, a la Yentl, just to afford me a little relief.

But, alas, this is not anonymous, and therefore I would never discuss such things.

We're back in the TwoWeekWait, folks.  That means that every moment of every waking hour, every day is spent (at least in part) thinking about the 'what-ifs'.   What will the moment of that positive test be like?  What will I say to my parents?  How will I blog about it?  Of course, this only builds me up for a possible let down at the end of that two weeks, but I am not capable of being unobsessed.  The best thing for all of us, really, would be that this cycle will take, and I will stop babbling on and on about what I'll wear the day I find out that I really am pregnant.  In the meantime, you are all blessed to hear about my neuroses in detail.

You are welcome.

Monday, April 6, 2009

third time's a charm

Today we had our third IUI appointment. The nurse asked if I had been warned about my three follicles. (Hmm? Warned? Um, no...) She said that meant that we could have triplets. As scary as that sounds, it's really hard to be realistic right now. Any positive test in twelve days and I'd be willing to make a deal with the devil, so to speak, even if that included multiples. I say this now, hoping that wishing for multiples might just 'curse' me into them.

Yeah, cause that'd be awful.

We saw Karen's G-ma on Saturday, and when K ventured to the bathroom, her grandma asked me right away if I 'had any news? Any news at all?' It was a very nice question, and a nice afternoon. We spent some time with her through the afternoon and worked on a puzzle. (See left, impressive, eh?) She asked whether we would travel to Kansas or Colorado soon. I figured she was confusing a story from Karen's past, or mixing up grandkids... Nope. She continued: 'you know, where they allow gay marriage now.' I had a hard time not smiling like a fool. I like that her grandma is so hip and cool. When we left, her grandma told me to 'get my body to cooperate already'. I think that's the push my uterus needed. Thanks, g-ma!

More to come, when we have some news. (Or when I have phantom symptoms, or when I'm obsessing as usual, or when Carrie is tired of hearing how I'm so sure this will work this time. -- Hi, Carrie!)

Have a nice week!